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In a way, it was destiny

May 24, 2008 at 7:38 pm (Uncategorized)

It’s a funny word: Destiny. I was never a believer of that word. But things have changed. if it was for the better, I don’t know yet. But hopefully soon I will know.
I think it all started about six months ago: the day I found out that I was afraid of my shadow. I was walking in the busy streets of New York when I noticed it. The way it followed me. It mimicked my every movement, my every step and no matter how much I tried to get away from it, it followed me, stalking me. I finally found solice in the darkness of my apartment. I lived in darkness. But after a while I realized all of potential dangers of my apartment: the food in my fridge could be poisened, the chips could have magets in them. But I snapped myself out of it. I told myself that I was being silly, that nothing was wrong. but after two more months of this, I started to waver in my conviction.
The beginning of the end for me was when I looked at my reflection. I saw all of the dangers of it. The way that, like my shadow, my reflection followed my every movement. This time was worse, though. I could SEE the person mocking me. She wouldn’t leave. She was everywhere I looked and went. I couldn’t take it anymore! I punched the glass, my knuckles breaking and glass sticking into my flesh. I heard a knock at my door. I ran over and said hysterically,
“I know what you’re up to! You’re all against me!”
“Alanna!” a voice said. “It’s me! Victoria! i’m so worried about you! Please let me in!”
But I knew better. It was not my sister. It was ‘them.’ They were all out for me. I opened the door and attacked the imposter, strangling her until she stopped breathing.
And now I’m here. I guess in a way it was destiny. i was never accepted by society, but i am now. My fellow peers making their home in their padded cells. And I’m among them now. The men in white coats say that I’m sick. But I have never felt better in my life.